What am I going to do next?

Where am I going and what am I doing? Now thats an easy question for me. I am going to the west coast, starting in LA and headed to Seattle. I'm Co-leading a team to the west coast. RIght now I still need $2,000 for the whole trip. Is God Good yes Can he provide it? Yes? But where does it come from? You. But why would you donate? For a number of reasons, One you believe in what we are going to be doing. You believe in me. You want a tax write off. And many more. But what are we going to be doing? let me tell you all about it. In LA we will be training trainers, teaching the body of Christ how to multiply and doing simple street evangelism. We also will be going to Arizona for a few days to help with the premier of a film called "Sex And Money: A National Search For Human Worth" A documentary on sex trafficking in America. Then after a month we In LA we will head to Seattle with a few brief stops in between. In Seattle we will be preparing the way for the Seattle House of Prayer, A ministry that I am leading. The Seattle House of Prayer(SHOP) is a community of believers dedicated to radical relationship with Jesus Christ, Authentic community and seeing all of Seattle come to know and be in radical relationship with the person of Jesus Christ. We will be doing extended times of pray and worship in the city as well as street evangelism and planting simple house churches on university campuses. And where does this money go? Transportation, housing and ministry expenses. It will cover everything we need for the full 75 days of outreach. Well that sounds great Alex. Thank you very much. Another question for you, how do I donate? Well you can call or email +1 (808) 326-4428 / donorprocessing@uofnkona.edu or click this link

Thank you so much for all of your help over the last two years thank you for your prayers, and thanks for reading.

Also here is a trailer here for the film we are going to promote.

A Beautiful Stroke of Truth From an Imperfect Life.

DTS. What an awesome time, I did mine in 09 and it was amazing and started me on a journey of learning about who God is, who I am and what we together are going to do in the world. There is no real direction with this post I just want to share my heart with you faithful readers and those of you that have stumbled upon this blog.

God has radically changed my life, before I really started to run with the Lord my life was a waste, all I did was spend my time chasing after girls so that my insecurities would be fed, I lead a life of radicle impurity and compromise. I had a job so I could get money, I got money so I could get booze, I got booze so I could get girls and try and drown the shame of my most recent sin. The hearts I stepped on bruised and broke in the name of me feeling good is countless. My identity was in how the world around me saw me. Ya, I sti

ll went to Church, but it was a farce, lipstick on a pig, a large loud swelling orchestra of a lie to the world and myself that said my fake life makes all my sin, dirt and shame ok. It wasn't. I was broken and I knew I needed to get out of my little world I had made for myself. But my hypocrisy didn't end at church, it extended into my poetry, striving for holiness but living broken, every last poem condemned the way I was living. I was in the wrong and I knew it. Everything in me wanted to get out of the cycle but I could quit the sin, I was stuck.

But there is always hope, even when it is faint and far. After my shows we would always go to Denny's, So I asked my friend to come with us. On one condition would my friend and his fiancee come, if I would go to Hawaii and do a DTS, specifically the one he was staffing, Xtreme places. I said yes and we shook hands. Friends, Family and co workers found out about where I could go on outreach. Central Asia, "We want you to go, just not there. You could die." I was already dead on the inside, I knew Jesus would be in Hawaii, and I knew that he would bring me back to life. What concern does a dead man have for dyeing? None.

How would I pay for it? How would I get there? What would it be like? I didn't care, I just had to go. Go I went. I got of the plane, dreadlocks down to my butt, chubby from beer, wearing a tie dye V-neck, unsure of the next six months. I met my staff, my two friends ran to greet me shaking with excitement because they knew what God was about to do. That f

irst weekend, we told our stories. In a class of 10

guys and one girl with our 11 staff, I told the most delightful, surface level story of how I got there. Yes I grew up in a christian home, yes I struggled with Porn just like most other men in America, but God set me free its all good. Fake. And then my classmates began to break down weeping confessing the gross ugly reality of there lives, the drugs, the alcohol the sex, all of it . Broken honesty flowed like a river, and the deep well of insecurity in my heart began to boil over. "What if they find out the truth of how black my heart is? What if they know about the deeds of darkness? They will hate me and throw me out! I have to leave now! I'll reject them before I get rejected!" What a bunch of ridiculous lies to avoid the truth, I was black with sin, covered in dirt, filthy, grimy, despicable, I deserved death for what I had done and no amount of good works would ever change it. I was going to run. I was literally planing on getting my bags and hitchhiking back to the airport, I don't know what I would do when I got there but I would get away from the island and the confrontation with my sin. If I stayed I would have to die. And die I did.

I decided to let it all out and see if they would Love me. I let it all out, everything. All my sin from when I was a kid being introduced to sexuality at 5 or 6 and then to porn later, to all the girls, all the alcohol and all the emptiness. It was out in the open, the windows to my heart the doors the roof everything was open, the darkness came out in a massive confession.

And then the light could come in.

Then I was baptized for the second time, I gave my life to Jesus, I said your the boss from now on, I cant run my life any longer. I got a fresh revelation of his Lordship. When I asked him to be my Lord and Savior, I gave up the right to my life, my comfort, my preferences, I gave up my right to me. Because I gave me to him.

It was a new day, LIGHT! Glorious light from His love streamed in. He started to tell me over and over that he loved me. Until I got upset and asked, "Why wont you tell me something else?"

"Because I want you to know and believe that I Love You."

I Cut my Dreads, giving up the identity in how everyone saw me, and taking the identity he had for me. Son.

I went to Pakistan and got so sick that I at one point weighed 140 pounds, but got radically encountered with real lasting relationship. I learned to hear his voice in the mountains of a muslim nation because there was no one else to talk to at times.

But I was not yet done living in the community and was planning on coming back to Kona. He told me one day about the rest of the year as I bathed my feet in a mountain stream. Lecture phase for DTS, was marriage between us, Outreach in Pakistan was the honeymoon, the next lecture I would be pregnant, the next outreach, I would give birth.

The language was odd, but I trusted and he continued to show me what he meant. I went home for a month. I hated it, and decided then and there I would never return

to Seattle long term. I was a missionary based out of Hawaii. I was back with my best friends and I was going to China, I fell more in love with the Man that freed me from me, I grew deeper with my friends. Something was growing inside me, I felt a tug in my heart back to Seattle, a desire to see a city of darkness turn into a city of light.

China. Getting there was a miracle of financial breakthrough, but what happened there directed the course of my life for the next few years. My friend Alyssa was speaking at a conference on prayer and worship that we as a team were putting on and she said, "When we pray for our cities it changes the atmosphere." Instantly I got a picture of a map of Seattle cover with glowing dots, the dots were houses of prayer, and the Glory of God was coming down on the dots and spreading out until they all were connected and the city was covered in the Glory of the Lord. And Seattle went from a city of darkness to a city of light. "Do It."

The rest of the trip I got the frame work for what The Seattle House of Prayer would look like. This vision in my heart became the SHOP. A more in depth look at that later.

I spent another year in Hawaii, growing in my relationship with Jesus, ever pretense, all my baggage, my fears, the little insecurities all were confronted and dealt with in some level. I haven't arrived, but I'm farther. He's real. He took me to London for my best friends wedding, he Rescued me from an airport before that, He showed me America, He taught me to make music and. And He became my best friend.

Jesus is not some character in the Bible, he is not some supernatural force. He is not a cosmic ATM where I pray and He makes me feel better. He is a man, He is alive, He is real, I have met him.

He changed everything about my life, I have purpose I have life, and that wasn't even the point. He did it cause he loves me. No strings attached he just does. I'm not saying that everyone needs to do a DTS to experience this, though DTS is a great place for it.

Even in my walk I have changed, at the beginning of DTS my walk was about what God could do in my life, how he could make it better. Thats not what christianity is even about, its about following the Man named Jesus, is about the lamb that was slain receiving the reward for his suffering Rev 5:12. It was never about us its always been about him.

Jesus, thank you so much for taking me out of my sinful selfish me centered worthless life. Giving me a new life binding up my broken heart releasing me from darkness, Isaiah 61:1. taking my heart of stone and giving me a heart of flesh Ezekiel 36:26. You are worthy of it all! Holy Spirit let my life and this story be a testimony of what you can do when some one says yes. Im not any better than any one else, as has been made plain and clear, I haven't arrived. Often times I can still be a jerk to people and to God, but he continues to make me new.

The point of the story is this, Long ago in a garden The God of the universe got dirty and made a man, He didn't need to. He already was in perfect community with himself as Father Son and Spirit. He had no needs, but he wanted to create, and create he did. He brought us into community, we rebelled and since that day he has been making strides to get us back into community. Do we deserve it? No. We deserve death for rebelling against perfect love, we were jerks when we said "perfect unity with The God of the universe The God who is Love, 1 John 4:8, is just not enough for us" But when we deserved death he made a way for us to live.

Thats my story. Its a story of redemption, Its a story about a man that loves perfectly because he is perfect love, and a man that just wants to love that man back.

The story Continues in DC

Our nations capitol. this would be my first week with the team, I had met up with them in PA the day after I got back from the wedding and now I would be leading with Brit. We stayed all together in one house, JHOP (justice house of prayer). most of the week we spent going to different monuments and praying for our nation and understanding the importance of the place, what it represents so on and so forth. We also went to the embassies and prayed for the nations. DC is an interesting capitol, its not actually in a state, its its own thing. As the seat of all three branches of government what ever is released there affects the rest of our nation. Also in the same way whatever is released in the spirit there will affect the whole nation. For example in 2008 for several months at the steps of the supreme court some one would stand and pray for the ending of abortion and the overturning of Roe v Wade. For several months 24/7 there was at least one person praying. At the end of that time, the opinion of america shifted from being pro abortion to being to a majority of americans being pro life. Being in our capitol seeing the history, seing how government works, well at least where it works, and praying for our nation was really special. By the end of the week everyone was looking refreshed and ready for more.

Three Snickers

A couple of days ago some crazy stuff started to happen. But first the back drop. Today I was supposed to have 500 dollars for outreach, I was at mostly a loss of who to go to, and didn't know where the money would come from, however as we have seen God has never let me down. It was tuesday, skate night. My first night leading it by myself, we had no keys and no way that I knew of to get or snacks that we sell or play music. Luckily some of my team learned the code to the box and got us our snacks. There was a brand new box of candy bars with snickers in them, my favorite, and I called out to the team, "If any one wants to buy me a snickers I will gladly receive it!" A student cried back "I'll get it for you!" booya.

The next day to cultivate a culture of generosity and on the word of the Lord we had a giving time, I asked the Lord, "Jesus what can I give? What do you want me to Give?" "Nothing." He said. "Nothing?" " Nothing." Ok, so I stood and watched as macbooks shoes and thousands of dollars were being exchanged in acts of radicle generosity. As I stood there, one of my students came up to me and put a fresh 100 dollar bill in my hand, praise God! The time was drawing to a close so I walked to the back of class, My friend Jaimie gave me a snickers, thats 2. Very sweet. Then another one of my students asked me what phone provider I had, its verizon. "Does Verizon support iPhones?" "Well starting This month they do." "I want you to have this."

BAM! iphone 4! IN ITS BOX! A bit used but amazing nonetheless. Then Jaimie goes and buys me a brand new OTTERBOX For the thing! That night a got another 100 dollars.

This morning I was with a band of brothers, we get together to talk about how awesome Jesus is. I started to tell the tale of my two snickers and began to pray out almost jokingly; "Jesus I'm pressing in for the fullness! God let me have a third snickers and the 300 I need today!" We prayed for God to release the fulness in our lives, what ever that was for each of us in particular. Then I went to class, Brian Brentt brought a great word and we all ended up allot freer. Then my friend Lauren came and gave me a snickers. THE THIRD SNICKERS!!!!! And said to me "Alexander, the Lord wants you to know that he will bring you the fullness of provision." God is so good! For you readers that need a breakthrough in your lives of finances, put your hands out and pray this prayer, Jesus thank you so much that you Love me with such a extravagant love, God I repent for fear of lack in my life. Thank you Jesus that you love me more then the Birds of the air Matt 6:26, how much more will you provide for me?! So right now I take authority over every lie that says you will not provide for my every need and I tell it to go to the foot of the cross, Thank you Jesus for your blood that covers over a multitude of sins. And Jesus I just ask that you would provide for this situation right now.

Then ask the Lord if there is something you need to do to partner with him to get the blessing, maybe it involves radicle generosity, or some form of obedience.

God is good